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I am 33 years old and I have had fibro for 3 years. I only got properly diagnosed earlier this year.
Iv had good times and Iv had really bad times. I am having a really bad flare up and I seriously just want to give up. I cried to my husband for an hour the other night because he was giving me a hard time for not having sex with him in two weeks.
I understand his frustration because I'm frustrated. I'm just so sore all over even a hug is sore. I tried to get him to watch a YouTube video the other night about a women that has fibro and how crippling it is. I cried and cried and told him he doesn't understand me. Although he said he understands and the fact I was so upset about he knew it wasn't put on just to get out of sex.
I know he doesn't understand he just thinks he does. It's getting to the stage where I'm getting sick of listening to my own voice complaining.
What am I going to do? Lucky I'm on 1 week of annual leave in work. I work as a social care worker in residential with young girls with mental health issues! They have very challenging behaviour. It is a very stressful job specially for my anxiety because these girls can be dangerous.
My husband suggested for me to work part time. I just think if I drop to part time I will go mad at home and also I'll let this illness win because I will definitely give up.
I have an interview for another residential job that hasn't got the extreme challenging dangerous behaviour this Monday. It's closer to home too so that might be good.
I have worked so hard to get where I am today, we own a nice house, just got married, bought a nice car and my son just started secondary school. Sounds perfect right?? Eh no because I have this stupid illness that could make me lose everything I have worked so hard to get.
I'm really at my wits end. If anyone could tell me what meds they are on that help them??
I am on Lxprim 2, 4 times a day, amitriptyline 50mg per night, Versatis patches ( so hard to pin point pain, so kinda useless)
I take xanax 2.5mg as required. When I'm working I would probably take 3-4 when I'm not I could take 1 if I have to go shopping or visit family. And maybe 1 to help me sleep.
I'm starting to become an addict on the xanax but I can't help it. It's the only tablet that actually stops me from suffering with one symptom and that's my anxiety.
Please help guys I need to feel positive again I'm just so lost
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